Being Alone – Saturday Soul with Sandy Hibbard

When

Sandy Hibbard — Sun, 11 Sep 2016 03:03:23 +0000

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When

How long will it take to get over the habit of you
Waking up to the pretend words that you love me
How long until I turn in my covers
And don’t think about you
Laying next to me
How long?

Learning to Surf the Waves

Sandy Hibbard — Fri, 06 Dec 2013 20:50:47 +0000

I’m snowed in today at home. We had a big ice storm last night in Plano Texas and my power went out around 12:30am. Power is still out and I – am being forced – to learn again how to be quiet within myself. I am also honing in on my survival skills! It didn’t take long for me to get hungry for something nice and hot, so I decided to brew a pot of espresso in my fireplace, and guess what? It was delicious! Guess what else? I’m fine! Even though I can’t get out of my house, the streets are too treacherous to drive on and my only connectivity is my precious iPhone that I am rationing out usage on because there’s no electricity to recharge it with, I am good with myself.

As I tell you often, I am learning to go with the flow. I am learning to be content with the way things are. And yes I throw fits and get unhappy, act like a shit, and feel completely unsettled sometimes – that’s when a call to a friend, a glass of wine and a good cry by the fireplace helps.

My blessings are in my face today in this quiet cold downtime – I am upheld by my spirit, dear beautiful friends, wonderful family, and people who love me, I am grateful that I am really never alone. Thanks to all of you, you know who you are.

I’m going to sign out now so I can finish drinking this hot cup of campfire coffee before it gets cold…

Love and hugs,

Sandy

SAFE with Want and Desire our New (old) BFF's

Sandy Hibbard — Tue, 05 Nov 2013 13:19:07 +0000

I have to share a few thoughts on this poem I wrote. I actually wrote this months ago and yes, I was there in my favorite cafe with my headphones on when I suddenly realized how isolated I was from the world, that’s when these words came to me. I was reminded of them again this week in NYC when I was in a cafe and noticed that even if I wanted to have a conversation with someone, I couldn’t. Everyone was on their smartphone or laptop and in their own safe cocoon. How do we break through these techno-bubbles to really connect with a new person? Think about it and then share your thoughts with me. XOXO Sandy
Safe
want and desire
want and desire
they have schemed again with my mind
the great and mighty judge
to put me in my place
and keep me right where i belong
alone with my feelings
not good enough
not worthy of love
here i am wrapped up in my self-made
cocoon
of iTunes
ear buds in my ear
hands on my Apple
in the midst of a crowded
bustling Cafe Brazil
this is sunday brunch for me
nice and safe
no communication
no intimacy
no one can see me
just want and desire
i don’t have to expose who i really am
i don’t have to have a conversation
no eye contact for god’s sake
just good observation
safe here with my esteemed judge
alone with my favorite guys
want and desire
nice and safe
tucked away where no one can get to me
and where i certainly can’t get to anyone