The Distance Between Us

There is a distance
a chasm between us
a void that cannot be filled
with mere words
or expressions made
not even shortening the distance of miles between us
The span is more than miles
more than years
It is two hearts separated
engaged in two different worlds
But in that first moment
all distance was removed
differences were unnoticed
years didn’t matter
ideals didn’t matter
All that mattered was each other
All that mattered was the space between
two pair of eyes
looking at each other for the first time
The space in that breath
between our mouths
when we kissed
The space between our bodies
as we made love
That was all that mattered
I want to return to that joy
to awaken to another moment
of total abandon
that brief look into your soul
when I saw your heart
felt your skin on mine
and was forever captivated by your smile.
© Sandy Hibbard

“Be encouraged today by the strength that lies underneath your pain. 
Feel your tears then let them go – joy comes in the morning – you can count on it!”

You are the Spark that is Enough

You think big things come easily?  Try giving birth to a child.

You think the earth exploded into being without a blast?

Does metamorphosis come without dying? Try to catch that butterfly.

Do we ever find the answer without asking the question?

Will Spring return if there is no winter death?

There is a season for everything

A time for all things

We are destined to grow and change and move into ourselves to bring nourishment and life, shelter and shade

But the shadow of our height will not appear if the rain and the sun have not done their work

Or the clouds with storm and thunder have not declared it so

When warmth mingles it’s kisses with the cold and frigid earth, a miracle will happen

A seed will grow, an opportunity, a healing, a new beginning

Small things are big, fragile things are strong

You are the spark from the big bang

Your creativity is the hand of God

Joy will come, oh yes it will

Grace and mercy too

As sure as the sun will rise

Because YOU are enough

YOU are all that is needed

© Sandy Hibbard

Amazing images are by A/R.

My Secret Conversation

In between the night and mornings first light
There is a quiet moment when thoughts of you fill my heart
Never to share out loud, these vision are held soul-captive
My own secret conversation
No one else
In that secret place where I reveal my tender self
Passionate longings give way to visceral imaginations
Life with you,
Love with you,
Death with you
Every detail colored in the magic of our deep sharing
Even the ground beneath our journey reaches up to kiss you
As I reach out to know you
In between the night and mornings first light
I share openly without fear
And in this twilight conversation you are always here
What I see sustains me in that moment
Lulling me to sleep
To embrace this dream of the night
Maybe someday we will have this conversation
In broad open daylight
 
© Sandy Hibbard
Opening photo “Lovers” by Spokojnysen

Yes, the words that we all understand – pain, loss, grief, faith, hope, despair, love.  And you know what I like about them?  They connect us! If we could ever stop long enough to be honest with ourselves and each other, we would find that #1 – we are not alone, and #2 – we are all connected.  May not know all the answers (and we don’t) but we can sure get through this life easier when we don’t single ourselves out to be some kind of lonely martyr or pitiful victim.   Really.  What has gotten me through the tuff times in my life (along with the love and support of my family and friends), was knowing that there are MILLIONS of women (and men) around the world that are going through the same type of thing (or another type of painful thing)!  And we survive.  With love, we will survive.  Love for ourselves and with acceptance.  Acceptance without judgment.

Last night I watched Clint Eastwood’s movie Hereafter and wow, I will be thinking on this story and characters for days!  My short review is: slowly moving, powerful, beautiful, deeply touching, deeply emotional.  There were parts in the movie I wanted to wail!  But then other moments that made my heart smile.  My take away?  Just what I was talking about – the many similarities of our stories, our connectedness, and the sweet thread of humanity that holds us all together  – no matter where you are, who you are, or what you believe.  Oh, and let’s not forget that thing that is so common among us ALL – our faith, and our desire for more.  I thought about the loved ones I have lost and the blank despair your heart feels, just like one of the characters in the movie.  I related to Cécile De France’s character in her search for meaning of her experience – how many of us have a “secret” we are trying to give meaning to in our lives? And then Matt Damon’s character that struggles with his “gift” – is it a blessing or a curse?  Ever wondered that?
I love Eastwood’s movies.  I like the way he patiently moves you into his characters, until you know them, relate to them.  I just sat back and enjoyed each nuance of the 3 main characters and their stories that intertwine throughout the movie – it was a quiet pleasure with a hint of sadness mixed throughout, then blossoming into a cool breeze of joy…life is kinda like that, don’t ya think?
Love and peace…always!
Sandy

George Jetson and Star Trek – bring us hope for the future !

WOW!  2010, 2011, 2012, 2013*&@#$!!  Back in the day when we thought of the “2000’s” we thought of the Jetson’s, Spock, the Enterprise and flying cars!  I wonder how our cultural collective conscienceness would have changed if we had known that things really wouldn’t be that different?  Which makes me ponder another thought – about how we are always thinking things will be different in the future…like “2013 is going to be my year! ” –  I have said it already.  But you know what?  It is the hope of the future that makes us say that.  It is the hope of things being better, the hope of a new fresh start – a blank canvass – that keeps many of us pushed toward growth and change.  I think the reality is that the nature of human beings doesn’t  change much, we just get smarter (hopefully), become more aware and learn more about ourselves, which in turn changes the way we treat each other.  I do however, hold to a deep belief that we are expanding our natures through love, and those who embrace love do indeed hold the power to create a better future for all.  But anyway, I do hope for flying cars and advanced technology that will allow me to beam myself up to Tahiti without it costing too much!

I want to encourage all of my family, friends – old and new, social networking buddies, my clients, associates and readers – to continue to look hopefully to your future.  Whatever you have struggled with today, this year, in your life – I encourage you to meet it head on NOW.  Sit down and write out a way to overcome the obstacles you face.  Think deeply, meditate on it, pray about it, then be still and the answer will come.  I love you all!

Love and Peace!
Sandy

Ending
scorched heated days of summer
crisp sun dappled moments
laced with children’s laughter
gin and tonics and pool-side acrobatics
cooler water flows from the hose
Lacey and Caesar repose
from ferocious growth to quiet contemplation
summers’ winds lay down

Conspiring
portrait of the full-moon laughing
a chill on the skin wrapping,
enclosing all that’s green hued
to orange-red speckled to woo me
the air turns pale while slower cars prevail
settled, quietly dreaming
flinging powered puffs across pure blue
Autumn’s breath begins to move

Creating
crunching dead-life beneath my feet
reminding me how quickly we expose
regroup, engage, pursue
green life hides beneath the heaving chest
promising a wild return pressed through cold-wet
chilling warming playful Autumn air
capturing a five-fingered turkey
returning laughter for care.

© Sandy Hibbard