heartache – Saturday Soul with Sandy Hibbard

Do I Ever Cross Your Mind Mr. Valentine?

Sandy Hibbard — Sun, 14 Feb 2016 07:21:00 +0000

Here is my annual tribute to Mr. Valentine, where ever he is.. I wrote this for Valentine’s Day, it is special to my heart, and very personal. I hope it will speak to you in some way. Happy Valentine’s Day all you beautiful loving people – take this day to relish in the ability we have to love and feel passion.
XOXO

Do I Ever Cross Your Mind Mr. Valentine?

Do I ever cross your mind when it rains…
wondering how I am navigating the traffic in the storm or if the pool is flooded?
Do you ever have an instinct to pick up the phone and call me
when your work is through
…just like you used to?
I do.
Some days I want to hear your voice on the other end of the phone,
calming my nerves and easing my stress as we laugh about the day.
Whispering silly words in foreign voices…our special mode of play.
It’s hard to shut off my “best friend” mode.
It’s tragically sad how the events of one morning could change our destinies.
Everything.
No stone left in place,
all thoughts and memories tear-laced.
Dreams shattered and our plans laid to waste.
Nothing remains,
only the debris of a very bad storm.
Me and you…
Lives wrecked by the actions you chose.
How can this happen?
How can a heart grow so cold?
It’s raining still and I feel weary to the bone,
I fixed the pool myself,
the car,
the yard,
and learned to be alone.
And as for my heart? Oh, I’ll be fine.
But tell me Mr. Valentine, do I ever cross your mind?
© Sandy Hibbard
Featured photo Robot Boy by vhm-Alex

Holding on to TRUE

Sandy Hibbard — Thu, 05 Mar 2015 18:40:09 +0000

Painting by Dorsey McHugh and available for purchase at www.DorseyMcHugh.com

I said to a friend recently on the phone that after choices were made FOR me that were painful, I had to decide to ACCEPT those changes as mine and embrace the new place where I found myself. The RESULT of our acceptance brings healing – I really believe that. As long as we fight against changes that are happening to us and in us, we cannot move forward. Dr. K told me once that acceptance was more powerful than forgiveness…..I have found that to be true as well. Here is a little piece I wrote on the emergence of my heart from a bad situation to acceptance and fearlessly moving toward embracing love in every aspect of my life.
Love and Peace,
Sandy
Holding on to True
Pulling myself up wasn’t easy
i thought i would die
i died a million times
drowning in an endless drought
of tears from the pain that broke my heart
But I am giving way to myself again
strengthening my mind in love again
returning hope to every you
embracing life in every hue
it may feel illusive now
but it is ever present
in me
as me
as you
as healing
i am holding on to this
i am holding on to true

Blue

Sandy Hibbard — Thu, 19 May 2011 11:10:23 +0000

I found a blue jay feather out back by the tree
you know, underneath the torch I lit for you
“How many torches do you have?” you said
“only one, that’s all”
“How does the flame go out?”
“I guess it will just go out by itself” I answered with a hint”
“But what keeps the flame burning?” you asked
“Fuel” you fool!
Finely tined feather
Not broken at all
Just skillfully removed and tossed
Into the dirt like a dagger
(in a brick wall)
Strange finding a feather under that torch
Removed like my love is for you
Yet ready to ignite by one single spark
But make no mistake about the feather
It was blue